You heard the title. You read it. It’s time for me to really reveal who I actually am.
I’m Vis and recently I’ve been going through a lot of trauma. This has been affecting me and others in a bad way. Last Friday, I found out that there isn’t a demon controlling me, nor am I depressed. I have a personality disorder. What I found out is that switching to alter ego (my other personality that’s mean and cruel) helps me calm down. I feel so much guilt whenever I am like this.
The more angry I get, the worse I become. I’ve been asking people why they care about me and why they aren’t leaving me alone. I realized that asking more questions about who I am and whether I’m real or not just corrupts me. And what’s worse is that this has been happening for a long time and I never realized it. I solely remember in my mind in 6th grade that I wanted to kill someone. But I never did. It’s only now that the effects really took me over. I’ve never revealed any of this information at all and that’s because I was too scared to reveal it. I solely feel like I’m an attention seeker. A toxic, toxic, attention seeker.
Everyone needs to remember this…
The inside is never at all the same as the outside.
All I really need to do is control my anger and most importantly, control my thoughts. Because whatever I think in my head, I do it in the real world.